Saturday, August 22, 2009
say what we mean and mean what we say?
what if the meaning of what I say this minute is not the same 3 hours from now or tomorrow but then the thought returns again next month? do any of us actually hold consistency in what we feel or think? Most of what I feel is fluid other than my core values and ethics which hold solidly in place for the most part. I probably don't actually hate myself. At least not all the time. It would be too easy to just accept hate and not work towards changing anything. I want to always be forcing myself to evaluate my foibles and critique and evolve. Hate is too static. Is it possible to hate yourself and to love life at the same time?
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Gosh, I don't know. Maybe not love life, but we have that primal need to survive.
This is easy for me to say, but I just suggest that you try seeing yourself through your own eyes as yourself, without judgment. Don't look at yourself as you think others see you. Try to stop those voices that have demeaned you. They are not who you are.
I think you are great and I am just a blogger!
thank you kindly. hearing you out on your blog and in comments has shown me that you're pretty impressive yourself :-) but I didn't really mean that as a fish for compliments. I think critical self reflection has a place in trying to live a life worth living. loving life and trying to justify my place in this world is the only thing that keeps me going. I'm trying to lift up that "maya" in my own way.
Oh, I know you weren't fishing--and this girl here wouldn't reel in the fish if you were; I'm a vegatarian!
But you are very kind, and that is a wonderful quality in the medical profession. You've been hurt and you're licking your wounds, so it is bringing out a part of you that is vulnerable and sensitive. It is painful, I know, but it shows you in a very gentle light.
"Is it possible to hate yourself and to love life at the same time?"
I do this every day.
where does that emotion come from R? I mean, for you. That's not really what you think when the sun graces your window each morning is it?
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