My birthday has made it's way round on the calender again today. It looks like despite the fact that I thought I might keel over and drop dead after my ex's last email to me and would surely be demonstrating rigor mortis by now, I am in fact alive and reasonably well.
Additional to that,despite my best efforts to resist any celebration, it looks like my close friends have planned to whisk me to the dead sea to recharge my batteries by the healing waters.
Last year at this time my ex refused to celebrate my birthday because my hebrew pronunciation wasnt improving as quickly as he would have liked. It was quite hard to learn pronunciation from a newspaper or book. So he avoided me all day and then in the evening spent 2 hours with me mostly yelling at me for being terrified to speak hebrew in front of him. Then he had me cancel my plans to celebrate and have ice cream with friends because he was tired and had to work the next day. All I wanted was to be embraced by him and have him throw me to the ground and make mad passionate love to me. I'm so messed up that my happiest moments were in his arms and all I wanted was his embrace and intimate attentions. It was not to be.
He had already satisfied himself for the day and his cowper glands were now resting, his pudental nerve long asleep.
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Well for what it's worth, my Hebrew is terrible to nonexistent. It's not an easy language to learn. I really don;t see the need to ban birthday celebrations because of it. It's not like you can over an old lady with a truck.
:-) Thanks Ricardo. I don't struggle with the structure of the language as much as I do with the pronunciation because I don't hear it spoken regularly enough and it's hard for me to transfer it from academic understanding to practical use. Or at least it was.
My ex just didn't care for me and not wanting to celebrate my birthday was just one sign that I overlooked.
But, this birthday was unbelievable! I was in the dead sea and it was probably the most chill personality appropriate birthday in years and I was totally surrounded by friends and someone interesting :-))
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