catatonic

My brain hasn't been functioning very well for the past while. I'm too tired to think clearly and have inserted toothpicks to keep my eyelids open this afternoon. It's interesting to me how we choose to manage our levels of fatigue in a working environment as we may function inefficiently but at least we're functioning. How ideal is this? It's not the gold standard approach to professionalism and productivity but I can't seem to justify closing my eyes long enough to feel sharp instead of fuzzy when I open my eyes once again. This continous state of fatigue affects learning and I can attest that when I was training hard, and thus physiologically required a greater amount of sleep than the average person, and wasn't able to get as much as I needed, even when sleeping in for a while to 6 or 630am, I could sit through an entire morning of hebrew class without even knowing the topic.

Mind you, no one else in the class knew the topic of the day either. It was a class A waste of time. There are few other things I hate more. Maybe it wasn't just brain malfunction.

I'm longing to go home, unwrap myself from my clothes, and envelope myself in my warm white duvet. Too bad for me. It's not going to happen until after midnight at the earliest tonight.