It's more than a bit sad and unfortunate when someone can be so paranoid and neurotic that they aren't even able to allow themselves to accept outpourings of kindness for what it is and not make assumptions on the nature of it.
I feel sad for those who are in this situation, however I don't care very much for anyone who chooses to attribute intentions or thoughts to me that I never asserted nor do I possess.
Kissanddagger loves to jump to conclusions about my thoughts even though he couldn't ever be bothered to actually find out what I thought or think for that matter. He assumes motives to my actions and twists them so that a simple act of wellwishing is construed as an attempt to hurt by my existance. Kissanddagger can't simply understand that someone might not want to be with someone who constantly belittles them and so the only way he can deal with the situation is to create some type of hatred.
It's a sticky situation to be in and a difficult way to live a life.
About Me
- Shawna
- No longer late twenties (dirty thirties have arrived)Canadian in Israel loving the diversity of the middle east and determined to spite it all and make that small differance while hoping and working feverishly for change and peace all at once.
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This is an ugly cycle that can burn you out quick. Too bad as it seems like you are really into him.
Hey Ricardo, I guess I'm somewhat resilient. He knocked me down for kicks over and over and some of it was because he felt hurt. But I'm not into him other than as a dear friend. If he could ever want that. Right now I'm really happy that I somehow ended up in a really healthy relationship and I can deal with friendships that aren't quite friendships.
I don't think he was ever into me for real and that's why despite the fact that I had an intense and abiding love, it wouldn't be right to be together. In a friendship I can continue to love and not get so worked over.
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