the pressure monster

There's so much pressure to perform to expectation sometimes and it can be stifling as I fear failure and even imperfection acutely. I want to give everyone my best and it can be exhausting. This week my father had a serious cardiac procedure done and I was with him the full duration, but I wasn't able to let work drop while I was by his side as all of our staff, all the doctors working on my team are on passover holiday. Regardless of the holiday, expectations are that our productivity will not drop and so I trudge on working evening and night hours to make up for the days spent with my family. I can't very well complain as I do want to finish this project and ultimately leave the client with a sense of satisfaction.