Looking around me I don't see leaves falling from multihued trees, mostly because fall in israel this year has been warm above the norm and generally winter brings green to our country in diametric opposite to winter in north america. Nevertheless, strangely, I'm animated. I feel mobilized. I feel empowered to deal with matters that I'd left untouched and unfinished.
At the same time I feel like there are demands from everyone around me. I want to give as much as I can but at some point I need a little bit of time to recharge so that I can stay plugged in to the pace that can maximize benefits.
When I need a recharge I like to shut off my phone and disappear for a night, whether it's with friends or on my own, I need it. Since I'm so long in the tooth at this point, I have the luxury of looking back and reflecting on what's worked for me and what hasn't in terms of reaching peak effectiveness. For a while I've been burrowed like a groundhog, not really progressing and hiding my head in the sand so I would willfully not notice. If I had noticed my stagnancy, I couldn't have lived with myself because my motivation and ambition are harsh taskmasters.
I lived through a type of exhaustion that only allowed me to live because I can always keep the wheels turning but slowing to a snails pace is unfulfilling for very long.
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You don;t want to burn yourself out. It sucks if you do. I like hiding also. We need to do this.
not so much hiding though right? more like reclaiming a few moments just for ourselves.
Yes, it's a regrouping but sometimes it can force you into a cocoon. You forget to come back out. It has happened to me.
so how did you know that the winter was over and it was time to come out?
I figued myself to come out in stages. Little by little. It hurt but the more I did, the better I felt.
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