here we go now

I'm so stressed I can hardly convince my body to cease production of the voluminous litres of acid that are set to light fire to my esophagus through day and night. So, what is the illogical but entirely female approach to take? Buy frequent and vast quantities of yogurt and frozen yogurt to soothe. It doesn't soothe emotionally as I'm feeling so overwhelmed and sick to my stomach.

So much going on. My dad had a cardiac episode on the plane from Toronto to a much needed vacation in Vegas. They were going to divert the plane to a landing but my father refused to inconvenience the other passengers.

My medical writing/editing place of work is giving me grief about my salary, by simply not paying it. All my medical staff have been put into a temporary hold pattern, including myself, since the due to an inept business development (medical) manager, all contacts fell through. I'm told that should my salary be paid then the business development manager, a right wing religo who lives across the green line, will not receive his full bonus. I'm supposed to feel badly that he's not receiving enough of a bonus when he completely failed at his job? when my staff and myself aren't getting our basic salary to pay our bills? .....and this without any prior notice.

I'm up to my ears in work for this unethical company at the same time as I maintain clinical responsibilities, set up my project in Haiti, and I'm in the final month of the graduate program that I've been working on this year. It's an intense workload and I'm slipping into frustration. Especially since I'm completely being taken advantage of. I do enough volunteer work without having my paid work be volunteer work.

Discombobulated and ineffectual arses. How can they treat people like that?

Thank whatever power that may be for bringing me into such a warm, respectful, passionate, loving and supportive relationship that I can at least look to as a sweet recovery pod, when I need a small break from the storm of this israeli cut throat company.