coincidence

If you're a free thinker, who can consciously deconstruct mental boundaries and are open to liberal interpretation of experiences, then you can probably support theories of synchronicity and coincidence. Often times my life seems like a series of coincidences, joined length to length with some larger purpose and intent overarching that I'm supposed to divine. I take my imaginary divining rod with me everywhere I travel, not to find water, but to find the fluid of comprehension that underlies who we are individually.

Sometimes I ask for answers and get them in the form of an immediate and telling experience. I feel like I'm asking a council of elders and this is how I get feedback from them.

I've ended up in relationships purely by chance and coincidence. I've fallen in love purely by chance and coincidence. I believe that I was supposed to have the experience that I did in my last relationship. I think despite the fact that all my previous relationships were serious and longterm, I never really felt love as deep as I did in my last relationship. He may have even been my first real love. I still love him but the nature of my love has changed. Reality is harsh and when he out of the blue decided that he loved me and wanted me in his life again, I had already used all my strength to move on and I couldn't risk going backwards. It took me a long time but I did move ahead with my life. I tried to be friends and would always help him if need be, and I did, over and over again without a single thank you.

By coincidence and chance I fell in love again when I thought I never would.

I've never been luckier than the day I met Adorable. With him I feel such unfettered love and intimacy because it flows freely. I don't feel like I have to hold anything back. We're fully involved in each other's lives and he's wholeheartedly embraced whatever we're building together. I can't predict the future but I feel lucky for the now. I hope I can give him the flowers and forests that he gives me.